I've thought many many times of how I want my weight to be in the 200's or less. I have also thought about what I'd do to get there, but I never actually follow through. Or I get started, but quit because I find life's excuses. I give up because I'm lazy. The the real reason. It's easy. Being lazy is easy. That's the reason I've got myself into the mess I'm in now!
I want to be able to wear a Large/XL shirt comfortably. I wear a 3X now. I want to be able to fit into a pair of 16/18 jeans and still have breathing room. With that kind of weight loss, my boobs would be smaller and I'd be happy about that too! I want to wear those cute dresses that everyone else wears. The ones that only come in a S, M, L, XL. I have knee issues. I'm sure that my weight contributes. I also can't breathe like I feel like I should. I know that if I could lose weight I could breathe better and not feel like I'm being closed in.
I don't want to be the girl that goes shopping with her friends and is just there for chit chat. I want to be able to try those clothes on too! I want to get in line to ride a roller coaster and not have the fear of not fitting in the harness!
I'm holding myself back back from enjoying life. My husband made the comment over Memorial Day weekend that I was not the woman he married. whew. that sinks. to. the. bottom. Has being fat taken over how care free and fun I used to be? I've been overweight almost my whole life, but never did I think that it effected anyone else but myself. It has. obviously.
I want to change for my husband, my child, and my family. They are everything to me.
Being healthier means that I can live longer and do more with them.
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